Just Above a Whisper

… thinking out loud …

08/07/2008 (10:35 pm)

My Mom Wants Me To Say This…ATTENTION PEOPLE WHO ARE READING MY BLOG!

Filed under: Cancer

My mom is really tired, so she told me to write this for her in my blog.

There is this 21 year old guy named Kyle and his mom is named Mary. Kyle has a type of cancer and he isn’t doing very well. His skin is bright yellow and pale at the same time. He has about 5 doctors around him at all times. Mary just says by him and watches her son slowly die. Imagine you watching your kid for about (at this very moment) 30 days straight! If you are to young to have kids and/or you aren’t married picture when you have a kid watching him/her die and you can’t do anything but pray.

The statistics on Kyle say he will die. Kyle’s family we hope through this situation will meet Jesus Christ and not listen to the statistics. Now go back to you picturing you watching you kid die with cancer, but this time you can’t help him at all because you don’t know Jesus Christ yet. Wouldn’t that be hard!

Please pray for this family to meet Jesus Christ and that Kyle will get better. My mom is making Mary a gift bag with things that will hopefully help her relax. Please pray for this family! Thank you for reading and please read my next bog entry (I wonder what it will be about that time)! Bye!

08/07/2008 (10:13 pm)

Needs vs. Wants

Filed under: Uncategorized

I have been getting money from babysitting. A lot! So, I’ve been saying, “I NEED that tote bag for school” and “I NEED that cool pen”. Everything has to do with “Me me I I” (as my junior high leader says when someone is greedy). I have really only thought about myself.

Then tonight when we were going to target with a $50 dollar gift card my mom asked me a question. She asked, “What do you NEED so I can see if I can buy it tonight?” I just sat there in the car thinking of the lists of WANTS not NEEDS. Then it hit me like when it hails and hits my dads hair when it just cut it down to nothing! They were WANTS and not NEEDS! I know it took me awhile because I was just thinking about me me I I. Then I told her, “Mom I actually can’t think of anything.” She was kind of suprised!

Now I think I was acting like a complete brat who is always spoiled. I know I’m not, but I was acting like I was. IT WAS HORRIBLE! I am just really glad that God helped me realize what I was doing wrong! Please keep reading my blog.

07/30/2008 (11:38 am)

If You Trust Him

Filed under: Secret "Angels"

I’ve learned a valuable lesson. Even if things are going tough still trust and believe in God! I have learned this personally.

I wear glasses and I really want contacts. I e-mail a couple of people yesterday and asked if they knew anyone that needs a babysitter to please tell me by a phone call or an e-mail. I then got an e-mail by my biggest costumer. It said, “Hey girl! Please call me right away or have your mom call me! You are about to be Blessed!! Our home number is ###-####.” Then once i got this e-mail I called her. She wanted to talk on the phone with my mother. They talked about thirty minutes long.

When my mom got off the phone she was filled with joy. She told me that if my family could raise money for the eye exam and a teaching session on how to put in and take out contacts they person that she was talking about will buy as much as she can afford of contacts for me! I just have to give her my prescription! This is a HUGE MIRACLE! Then later when my mom and I were out looking for a pair of jean shorts for me I saw I got a voice message. The message was from one of my pastor. He wanted to know if I could babysit from about 5:30pm-8:30pm.

I ended up babysitting them. They were so cool! Those kids were nice to each other and didn’t get in a fight and cry about it! Most of the kids I babysit fight a lot together. I ended up getting $25 dollars which is $7 an hour! I feel so blessed! I almost have enough money for my contacts. We are also going to use the check my nana and papa are sending me for clothes on the contacts because I have enough clothes even though they aren’t new. Yesterday was the biggest blessing I have had for myself ever since my mom got her second type of cancer!

( I don’t want to say any names or have any phone numbers in here for safety of these people.)

07/25/2008 (9:20 pm)

My Mom Should Be On Ellen or Oprah!

Filed under: Cancer

My mom is almost famous! Because of this cancer a ot of people that she doesn’t even know has heard about her, read her blog, or accidentally found out about her from the wrong thing on google. A lot of people have been on Ellen or Oprah from things like this! Also a lot of people look up to my mom and think of her of an insperation. My mom is the greatest even though she has this new type of cancer.

My mom isn’t just and insperation and a role model to other people, but also me! I am proud to have a great Christian, survivor, faithful person, easy to talk to, role model, funniest, insperational, awesome, (and what my friends say) the best and coolest mom ever as my mom!

So my mom should be on Ellen or Oprah! If you find out how to get her on tell me! Wait! I have another idea…she should write a book and have part of me to write it so we will both be famous! Not trying to be selfish or anything! LOL (laughing out loud)!

Thank you for reading my blog! Keep reading new posts!

07/21/2008 (9:18 pm)

Guilt

Filed under: Uncategorized

I have HUGE GUILT inside me right now! Last time my mom had cancer I was ALWAYS there for her except when I was at church. Now my mom calls me “Social Butterfly”. That means I hang out with my friends a lot. I know I will be at school soon, but it hasn’t started yet. I have been hanging out with my friends instead of helping my mom and I feel really badly! I talked to my mom about it and she said, “Keona, I might not like you always not being here, but that is just who you are now.” It made me feel better when she said that, but I want to be her helper again! I just want to be with my friends at the same time!

Everyone has said I sound very mature in this blog. I don’t think this one sounds very mature of me because I am basically saying I want to help my mom, but I need to hang out with my friends. I guess it doesn’t sound that mature. I just am that way sometimes. Very mature one day, then a kid/tween/almost teen the next. Please read my blog a lot because I like posting!

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